51. What if he had answered the letters
I just have no words, I don't know what to say and I don't know how I allowed myself do that to you. I want you to know that I didn't know the effect I had on you, I didn't know that I meant that much to you. I am devastated, when I told you that I didn't like you that way, I didn't mean that I didn't like you at all, its just that it is very difficult for me to be affectionate, you should know that. I am sorry, I wish I could have said this to you earlier. I love you, but not the same way you love me, and that is fine. I love you stronger than any girlfriend I could ever have; because I could easily break up with her, but with you I couldn't, you are my best friend. Probably I needed to hear that, so because he wasn't able brave enough to say it to me, I did. Related to suggested topic 12: A big mistake you once made
